A good rejection is truly a dying art form. More and more, cowardly people are relying on technological tools to do their dirty work for them. Why suffer that awkward, “I’m just not that into you…” when you can BBM it? And the reasons make sense: It’s easier to type than it is to talk and it’s scary. Especially, when the person you are rejecting is highly emotional or slightly to moderately crazy.
A brief glance into my own history of dating psychosis, and I’m the first to shamefully admit that I have on occasion, exhibited delusional and/or psychotic behavior. Even back in 7th grade, a time when only Melrose Place characters were allowed to curse, an ex-boyfriend accused me of being “a psycho bitch.”
Warm cuddly memories like these do not sit very well with people. So, it should not come as a surprise that rejections are becoming outmoded, just like last season’s fashion trends. Moreover, who likes rejection? Nobody. Whether you are receiving or giving – both are terrible and difficult under the circumstances.
The most common type of rejection is getting dumped. Instead of a quick and immediate rejection, someone rents you out for a while, then decides you’re not worthwhile after all. This is similar to buying a cute dress, only to return it two weeks later, because you suddenly realize that it makes you look fat. Store mirrors always distort the truth. Relationships have adopted the same policy.
But which is worse? Getting dumped after dating and being “in love” or facing rejection before that stuff ever had a chance to happen?
The last real rejection I experienced fits in the latter category. Joe Schmo was somewhere near a 6.9 on 10-point scale. Still, he was able to score very pretty girls. I don’t know how, except for the fact that he exuded that whole, “I’m a vulnerable-indie-rock-listening-tech-nerd-asshole” charm.
Asshole-y is a requisite characteristic for any desirable or attractive boy. This coveted personality trait comes in a wide variety of flavors and types, including: stupid asshole, fucking asshole, nerdy asshole, cheap asshole, athletic asshole, pretty asshole, rich asshole. I’ve found, every girl has her own personal preference.
Joe rejected me in a really strange way. To be honest, the entire Joe debacle still plagues me.
I met Joe at a temp job. He had a girlfriend at the time, but there was undeniable chemistry between us. I didn’t want to admit it, mostly because I didn’t find him all that attractive (recall that he was only a 6.9). But Joe got my humor, and I got his. And we were friendly, hardly even flirtatious – all in all, a perfect office relationship.
I was perfectly content with our status as “just friends,” because I had just gotten out of a less than satisfactory relationship a few months prior. And let’s not forget, Joe had a girlfriend. Even if he hadn’t, I wasn’t all that sure I could truly be attracted to his nerdiness. Ever since Al Gore invented the Internet, boys have become incredibly cowardly in the girl-wooing department. Phone calls have turned into text messages. Nowadays, Facebook wall posts and Twitter updates have become the most popular tools of seduction. I hate this. I grew up when late night phone calls and love notes stuffed in lockers were the ways into a woman’s heart. That was romance.
Joe’s dependency on technological communication was a real turn-off. Still, we would g-chat all day, rarely exchanging verbal salutations even though we’d be sitting right next to each other. There was something hilarious about it, and I began to look forward to our daily conversations.
The first conversation that made me think romantic thoughts was when Joe suddenly typed: You make me weak in the knees. I was taken aback. It was cute. Had I really thought that it was cute? Yes. Perhaps it was a bit more flirtatious than usual, but he had a girlfriend, so it was probably harmless. Right? Right. I wrote back: Shut up.
The topic of conversation ended, just like that. But something had changed. We developed a strange and inexplicable tension that continued to gnaw at us between clicks of the keys. An hour later, he confessed that he was having problems with his relationship.
Dating experts and sane people will tell you that when a boy you like starts complaining about his current girlfriend, the wisest course of action is to run for the hills or very far in the opposite direction. I like to stay. Actually, I bring a sleeping bag and camp out right there with him. Unfortunately, I’m that girl.
Still, 25 years of life had taught me some modicum of decency. I typed: If she’s a great person, you really shouldn’t let things go with her so easily.
Wise words. More importantly, honest words, and I meant them. I really did. I don’t know if it was my advice or not, but he continued dating her. Meanwhile, we continued g-chatting everyday, both of us trying to ignore the palpable tension that was still very much present. About a month passed, before he asked me to go get ice cream with him during our lunch break.
Maybe it was a bad idea, but I was so attracted to him at that point, I couldn’t help it. I was legitimately smitten, 6.9 or not. Still, I am no home wrecker. Well, not really. He admitted that things were rocky again with the girlfriend and that he had been developing uncertain feelings for other people. I thought to myself, “Of course there are problems! You have been flirting with the temp for two months now.” But I kept my mouth shut. My heart was fluttery.
We sat at the beach gazing at dolphins, while we discussed work, politics, his preference for Ben, and my fondness for Jerry. He asked if this was a date. I laughed and said, “No. Three things are preventing this from being a date: First, you did not pick me up in BMW. Second, we are not on a hot-air balloon ride. Third, you have a girlfriend.”
We both laughed; the whole thing was kind of lovely. Two days later, he g-chatted me at home: “Things are over. Mark your calendar – we’re going to start dating.”
We had our first date the following Monday. His hair was a mess at arrival, but I was still enamored. It was nice to feel something for a boy other than disgust, pity, or rage. We dined, then drank, then fell asleep together – all very PG. I definitely made some dating gaffes, like admitting to him that I didn’t think I was very special.
Ladies, no matter what, please don’t ever admit to a guy that you are insecure – especially at the outset. You must exude pure, unadulterated confidence in EVERYTHING, including but not limited to your body, your job, your mustache, your herpes, your cankles… everything. Women hate insecurity in men, so it only makes sense that guys feel the same.
Despite my gaffes, he asked me for a kiss, and held my hand as we fell asleep, watching Wet Hot American Summer. It was perfect.
The next day, he left on a business trip to New York and promised he’d call. New York came and went, but I didn’t hear from him. I was worried, naturally. Actually – I was confused as hell. I do not get rejected, at least not by someone who is a six-point-fucking-nine.
I contacted him a week later (via g-chat, of course), to ask him if he wanted to grab dinner. He replied that he was really busy with work and other various projects. I waited a few days. No word. So, I g-chatted him again to say “hi,” only to have him blow me off for drinks with his roommate. I am ashamed to admit it, but there was a third (thankfully, final) g-chat attempt. Since I was already an accomplished gold medalist in dating Special Olympics, I decided to just go for it. I typed: “Qu’est-ce qui s’est passé entre nous?”
Yes. At the time, typing in another language seemed the smartest and safest decision. I was so afraid of the looming rejection that I thought it might be more bearable in a foreign language.
It was not.
He confessed that he was really sorry, but he had decided that he wasn’t over his ex, after all. However, he said he felt guilty and terrible because he’d blown his chances with me.
Though he also speaks French, he wrote that in English. I was pummeled. If he had been a hot guy, I would have understood, but to have that crushing blow come from someone who wasn’t even conventionally attractive— I was truly baffled and offended. Okay. And sad.
A week later, while stalking his Facebook profile, I saw that he had updated his relationship status with some new girlfriend, some girl that I had never seen before and who was, even more alarmingly, not his ex-girlfriend. Obviously, I clicked on her profile, but it was set to private. The only sliver of public information revealed that she belonged to the New York City network. Hmmm.
They have been together ever since, and I have been excommunicated. No more g-chats, hand holding or shyly awkward glances. My temp job ended soon after, and I realized that I would probably never see him again. I felt sorry for myself, but also peeved. It was a rejection that only occurred because I had to extract it out of him. He was too spineless to tell me the truth, even though I really did deserve better. We were friends at one point after all. We didn’t even sleep together. Is it still considered a one night stand if he only gets to first base?
This is what technology is doing to society. Even rejections have become half-assed and lame. And I always thought that forgetting to putting the toilet seat down was the epitome of male indolence.
I still peruse his Facebook profile occasionally. I feel a pang of hurt each time I see them together in their photos. I can’t help but wonder if she makes him weak in the knees.